differences

Past few yrs, I m longing 4 mr.t greetin message durin my birthday. Last year, i did receive ur greetin message at 12am sharp. But i was not surprise n not excited at all. Cos i m longing 4 some1 else's greetin message.
Then tis year, i did receive mr.t greetin message. But i wasn't happy n excited at all. Cos i m longing 4 ur greetin message. Sadly, tis year u din send me any message. 真是讽刺啊～～ When i m not longing 2 receive ur message, u did send me. Then when i'm longing, u din. I know tis is the consequence i hav 2 bear wit. Honestly i felt quite bad, but nth else i can do...